“Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go!”

I thought being in a different country, in a big city would be more than enough to jump start my new life journey. However, I have discovered that when you have lots and lots of new and exciting things around you, you tend to reflect on the old and miss their familiar comfort.

I will be the first to admit I was very gun ho (no idea where that saying came from) when I devised moving country after my major brake-up. “The physical distance will be a great distraction,” I said to myself,  “once I leave on that plane, a weight will lift off my shoulders.” I mused with ignorance and hope. Well… reality is, well, reality and nothing in my grand plans said anything about me after 6 months still welling up and crying into my pillow until the wee hours of the morning because I desperately miss and pine for my lover.

I am frequently shocked and taken aback when going about my day and a smell, sound or sweet scene on TV will bring me to my knees, I suddenly feel like it was yesterday that I walked away from a man that loved me and the sadness cuts me deeply.

I know that with time the cuts will become shallower and the crying will cease, but for now they remain as a tie to the old and familiar, it is both a curse and a comfort…

“Keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.” – Marilyn Monroe

Walking around aimlessly can be a strangely romantic experience. You take the time to look up at the buildings, stop and watch the street artists, admire sunlight on the river and give yourself the chance to fall in love with a space. I have been in Melbourne for one week now and I spent this afternoon in silence wandering the city streets.

There is an energy and hum in a big city, but I believe you can still achieve the quite solitude of a country walk and use the time to reflect and slow down. I took in strangers passing by like trees or vistas, interesting, unique people going about their day. Being so surrounded gives you an odd sense of autonomy and loneliness. I really like it, finding a quite space to be alone has so many new possibilities now.